I've talked before about the age difference between Hillary and I. As I suggested there, I at least thought about this fairly often and would bring it up regularly. From my side of the relationship, it was one of the core inside jokes that we had together. A shared concept that we both got and we both understood how the other person felt about it.
So I made jokes and she did laugh and occasionally returned the barbs. That wasn't really her job in the relationship though. I brought the amusement largely and played off both of us. What can I say, we had our jobs and we balanced well. Great team and all that.
I'm kind of a numbers guy. I'm pedantic and try to be precise as much as I possibly can. This, combined with the fact that it just does not matter was what made it a good inside joke.
All this is to say that today I will pass Hillary in terms of total time alive. A truly pedantic person could probably argue that in terms of practical experience I passed her sometime in the last couple of days.
Up until today, I could still imagine that Hillary had had more life than I did. She has still faced something that I have not yet and she learned and grew from that. Up until today, I still had some comfort because of that.
Yesterday, she was still ahead of me. Today we are matched. Tomorrow I will have passed her.
I know I have more experience than I did a year ago. I have gone through things she never did. I will live with the impact of those things far longer than she had to live with her side. I don't know what to make of this. I don't know what it means. I don't know what I should do with it. I don't even know how I feel about it.
Just keep going I guess.